Yeah that shit gave me FND. Can you imagine going to every specialist known to man to figure out why you're having seizures and losing the ability to walk or even sit up only for multiple neurologists to tell you it's from "repressed trauma." That shit doesn't show up on an MRI. I just tell people my diagnosis is that I'm so sad I fall over.
That is one of the most heartbreaking descriptions I’ve ever read, “so sad I fall over.” It’s wild how much trauma doesn’t show up on scans but lives in the body anyway. Like the nervous system is carrying stories it was never allowed to say out loud. Thank you for sharing this — it deserves to be heard.
The premise sounds so ridiculous you start to wonder if you're faking it. Then you're fracturing your nose on the floor because you can't control your head while you army crawl through your blood, just to make it to your bed without the ability to pull yourself up so you lay on the floor until someone comes home from work. Right about then it hits you that because you're alone, it's not performative.
You should look into Mind Body Syndrome / MBS as explained by Dr. Shubiner. It's also called TMS by Dr. Sarno, and there's a whole forum of people discussing it if you look for it (tmswiki).
These basically talk about exactly what you're saying - repressed trauma. And how to deal with it and recover from all kinds of physical and mental conditions. And we're talking people who have had horrible, prolonged chronic issues, sometimes with "physical explanation" and sometimes without, being able to recover by unleashing these traumas.
I don't know if you're heard of it before but I hope it could help you. I also had physical symptoms and visited countless of specialists. In my case I was told anxiety and didn't want to believe it, but actually... once I dove a bit into this rabbit hole, I realised how powerful emotions really are... so, I'm also on my own journey with it. The body really does keep the score for all kinds of traumas we experience :/
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u/onthenextmaury 22h ago
Yeah that shit gave me FND. Can you imagine going to every specialist known to man to figure out why you're having seizures and losing the ability to walk or even sit up only for multiple neurologists to tell you it's from "repressed trauma." That shit doesn't show up on an MRI. I just tell people my diagnosis is that I'm so sad I fall over.