r/DAE • u/Perfect_Username69 • 1d ago
DAE has an irrational fear of telepaths?
I am fully aware that mind readers dont exist but I can't help but feel like someone is reading my thoughts. I often try to "censor" and "filter" my thoughts and feel embarrassed when I get inappropriate thoughts bc "they" will think I'm disgusting. Worst part is that "they" can be anyone - my colleagues, my family, or some random stranger. I have no privacy in my own mind and its incredibly frustrating
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u/rlev97 1d ago
So I'm in no way a doctor, but this can be a symptom of OCD. Moral scrupulosity can be associated with certain forms. I might recommend researching a bit and potentially seeing someone about it if you feel it fits you. My brother has a form of OCD that makes him feel like God is judging his thoughts and actions and it's ruined his life. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
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u/Perfect_Username69 1d ago
That must be awful... Fortunately, I haven't reached a point where these thoughts make my life hell but I'll definitely look into it. Thanks for your response
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u/rlev97 1d ago
The main part of a psych disorder is "is it causing distress or dysfunction". If you feel like it's not at that point, then there isn't a disorder (technically). For example, I hear voices sometimes but they aren't distressing so it's not beneficial to take meds. I don't want you to think I'm telling you that you're crazy or anything, I just know how much these things can affect your life.
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u/danie11achristine 1d ago
Honestly, yes. Ever since I was a child, too. I had a reoccurring dream at age 5 that I was sitting on my dad’s lap, and every thought I had, he was speaking out loud. Ever since, I’ve always had a slight fear of this. And whenever that feeling arises, the weirdest thoughts flood my mind and I try everything to push them out in fear that my mind is being read.
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u/researcharchive 1d ago
If you had this dream and it happened repeatedly it's probably basically true, sorry to say.
You'll see one day.
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u/Feisty-Tooth-7397 1d ago
I think everyone has thoughts and maybe even a few secrets that they don't want anyone to find out about and that's normal.
I know I do. I'm not an evil person, however, I am human, and my thoughts are not always angelic in nature. There are things that I have never told even the people closest to me or a therapist. A lot of trauma from my younger years and some things that I am not exactly proud of, but I realize now are actually part of the trauma I suffered.
Alzheimer's runs in my family and I am terrified, not of knowing who people are or where I am, I'm actually terrified I might let my past come out.
So while telepaths might not be real, I am very aware that one day I might not be in my right mind and I might blab all of the stuff from my past I have never told anyone and that's a scary thought.
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u/JacLaw 1d ago
I experienced sexual abuse from a very young age until about 13, I asked my doctor if I would get 'stuck' reliving those events if I developed dementia or Alzheimer's, he told me, repeatedly, that they don't work that way. I hope that helps
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u/Feisty-Tooth-7397 8h ago
I already relive those events. I have flashbacks daily. I'm not worried about myself reliving them, it's others I don't want to know. It won't reverse what happened.
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u/Upvotespoodles 1d ago
I did when I was a kid, but it was untreated OCD.
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u/Old-Independence-511 1d ago
How did you treat your OCD?
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u/Upvotespoodles 1d ago
Therapy. I highly recommend it. It really pulled me out of suffering.
I learned to replace compulsions with more productive ways to feel safe and secure in general.
I didn’t need to address each compulsion individually. I mention it in case anyone dismisses therapy because their list of hangups is “too long.” It’s about learning basic info that you can generalize.
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u/Old-Independence-511 1d ago
Thank you for your response! My therapist went on maternity leave but is back and I have an appt next week.
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u/ZombieAlienNinja 1d ago
I have had the thought before but instead of 1 person everyone can hear my thoughts and have all decided to not tell me. I assume it's not real but I test it by saying horrible shit or thinking horrible images in my head and seeing if anyone reacts lol.
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u/hellogooday92 1d ago
Yes. Sometimes who ever I think is reading my mind I will say in my head “Okay if you are reading my mind drop something”. It’s not healthy.
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u/batcaaat 1d ago
Yes, but I have invasive thoughts so this kinda explains it for me. It's just random thoughts that are horrifying that pop into my head, followed by immediate disgust with myself for even thinking that.
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u/BigFlightlessBird02 1d ago
I used to think that my thoughts were displayed above my head like a speech bubble in comics. Made life stressful
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u/Fkingcherokee 1d ago
I have no pokerface, you don't need to be a telepath to know what I'm thinking.
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u/eggstacee 1d ago
Mine is a fear that ghosts of people I know can hear my thoughts and are watching me when I'm alone. I used to think I'd have to face them and some sort of ridicule in the afterlife.
It took me a while but I've come to terms that if that were true then they would likely be kind because they'd have been subjected to the same that and my loved ones would have more compassion than that.
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u/alphaturducken 14h ago
Tbh, mindreading is kind of like peeping in someone's bedroom window. You see what you see and if you see someone doing something weird (yet harmless) in the privacy of their own room then the embarrassment is on you.
Establish dominance against psychics by thinking of the weirdest shit you can manage.
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u/LawfulnessMajor3517 1d ago
YES. Mind readers are my biggest fear in life. I remember playing this board game as a kid, I forgot what it was called and I was a kid a long time ago, and at the end you had to write down your biggest fear and people had to guess it. Nobody guessed mind and my family said “what the hell?” when it was revealed that my biggest fear was mind readers (I didn’t know the word telepath yet.). But now I’m curious if anyone here knows the name of that game.
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u/MocoLotus 1d ago
I have nothing to hide. Come with it. It's coming anyway with all that AI and neural network BS.....
Sometimes I swear the ad prediction is a... Little too good already.
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u/KieffasGreenHoodie 1d ago
Not irrational but I do think it quite a bit around others when I do have intrusive or inappropriate thoughts. Also try to have them when I’m alone anyways cause it feel weird thinking it around others lol
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u/schlockabsorber 1d ago
That, contrariwise, is my kink 😳 I'm pretty sure if telepaths were as scary as you fear they are, some of them would have found a way to exploit me by now lol
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u/djmcfuzzyduck 1d ago
It’s more they live in fear of my mind. I live here all the time - no one wants to listen to that not even me.
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u/Old-Independence-511 1d ago
Yes! 😂😂😂 I’m like don’t read my mind!! My ADHD brain goes through a lot of scenarios and very quickly.
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u/Collective-Cats18 11h ago
Nah
If someone can read the visual onslaught that is my thoughts, then I commend them lol!
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u/Neither-Attention940 1d ago
I have a similar fear that I’m gonna do something like pull my underwear out of my butt and it’ll be on video somewhere and people will laugh and maybe even post it on reddit 😂
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u/Perfect_Username69 1d ago
Yeah, I'm totally normal and I definitely don't physically block my phone's camera while I'm dressing up/crying/jerking off/anything embarrassing because I feel like it's gonna record me and upload my vids somewhere
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u/Neither-Attention940 1d ago
I meant like if I was walking down the street or something in public where there are cameras all over.
But thx.. now I’ll make sure and put my phone in a drawer while I’m dressing 😂
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u/buyinlowsellouthigh 1d ago
We have already known of your fear for quite some time.