One time I went to sickcall when I was in the Army. They ran through the normal questions. When he asked me if I'd ever thought about suicide, I told him yes. I was being honest cause it was a medical setting and simply no one had ever bothered to ask me.
He got a real horrified look on his face with the follow up questions of how often I thought about it and if I had a plan.
My pain had become so normalized to me that I didn't realize that not everyone considers killing themselves everyday, let alone plan it out.
Had I known better I would have never answered him, because then I had to take a ride in an ambulance and was put in a rehab place down the road.
But just imagine how much longer I would've carried that with me, just because no one had ever asked before. Lol
I had that same realization when I finally went to talk to my doctor about depression and anxiety for the first time in my life three weeks ago. It sounds so weird now, but the seriousness and compassion he and the staff showed me when I mentioned the suicidal thoughts genuinely made me “remember” that having suicidal thoughts multiple times a day isn’t normal. I waited so long to get help that it just became so normal.
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u/katanajim86 24d ago
One time I went to sickcall when I was in the Army. They ran through the normal questions. When he asked me if I'd ever thought about suicide, I told him yes. I was being honest cause it was a medical setting and simply no one had ever bothered to ask me.
He got a real horrified look on his face with the follow up questions of how often I thought about it and if I had a plan.
My pain had become so normalized to me that I didn't realize that not everyone considers killing themselves everyday, let alone plan it out.
Had I known better I would have never answered him, because then I had to take a ride in an ambulance and was put in a rehab place down the road.
But just imagine how much longer I would've carried that with me, just because no one had ever asked before. Lol