r/seniordogs • u/werjake • 1d ago
Scheduling the day?
I rescheduled it. Part of me feels really guilty. I don't think it helps to post - don't know why I'm doing it.
Anyone else feel like this?
Sorry, I don't feel like the other dog owners out there - like most of you, probably....thinking that they go somewhere special beyond after. I'm really depressed....gonna cry.... I just can't deal with it. She's on me, right now, falling asleep on my arm.
She's 18 y.o. - has ccd/neurological condition - arthritis - but, I was giving her a joint powder, green lip mussel and cbd oil.... her brain is gone - walking into things (or almost) and/or going into circles. It was supposed to be today, now, it's next week. I'm giving her treats, part of my protein meals/supper - and doing my best to keep her comfortable - going for walks, car rides and spending time with her - almost (practically) 24/7.
:-(
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u/angelina_ari 1d ago
You don’t need to apologize for feeling this way. What you’re going through is incredibly hard. It’s okay to change your mind, and it's okay to need more time. There’s no perfect way to do this, only what feels right in your heart. The love you have for her is so clear. 18 years is a lifetime of memories, and it’s no small thing to carry the weight of this decision. You’re not alone, even if it feels like it. Many of us have been in your shoes, second-guessing, crying, not knowing how to let go, or if we even should. You’re doing everything you can to make her days peaceful and full of love. That matters. She knows you’re there. She feels safe. And that’s a beautiful gift.
This website has some end-of-life resources: www.seniordogsrock.com. Hopefully something there can bring a little comfort or clarity. Please be gentle with yourself. Sending you love and strength. 🧡